Archive for July, 2012
I think the bar exam is over for everyone (my condolences if you still have another day to go)! Now we’re just left to wait.
At this point in our careers, we should have become expert “waiters.” We took the LSAT, and then waited for our scores. We sent out all of our law school applications, and then waited for acceptances. We went through the stress of 1L year, and then waited for our grades. We spent a week busting tail for the write-on competition, and then waited for journal acceptances. As aspiring lawyers, we have to do a lot of waiting. And once again, we will wait and hope that our hard work will pay off. And for some people it will and for some people it won’t, but either way we will all be okay. I promise; we will.
But if it makes you feel any better, you should know that if you feel nervous or bad about how the bar exam went, you are not alone! I have actual scientific proof. WordPress allows you to see what search terms have brought people to your site and I have included some of those searches below:
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So see, you are not alone. A lot of people feel bad about the bar exam. But it will be okay!!
Congratulations on finishing the exam! I know it is easier said than done (says the girl who was crying yesterday!!), but try not to let the anxiety you are feeling now overshadow this accomplishment.
Now get back to googling pictures of cats!!
I think most of the states finished with their bar exams yesterday. In one sense I’m Totally Jealous of those examinees for being done, but in another sense, I actually like the idea of having a few extra essays–it’s like a last clear chance doctrine. Maybe I was a little negligent in failing to learn commercial paper, but the bar exam is giving me one last chance to try to mitigate my damages (I don’t think that’s right; I’ve forgotten the LCD already!!). But mini freakout aside, day three is nice because simply by process of elimination, everyone seems to have a decent idea what subjects will be tested today (which thankfully doesn’t include torts!!).
So if you are lucky enough to be finished, CONGRATULATIONS!! I hope you spend the day filling your brain with cotton candy like activities (I’ve already purchased a bunch of gossip magazines!!) For those of you who have just a few more hours, good luck with your final studying. Just keep swimming, we’re almost there!!!
With two days behind me and only one more to go, I’m feeling pretty tired, grumpy, stressed and just plain burnt out! Today didn’t go so great. I still had six questions left when the proctor gave the five-minute warning during my afternoon MBE. I answered two of them the best I could and then just bubbled in “A” for the last four. I’m just hoping to win the multiple choice lottery here!
I keep thinking about how terrible it will be if I fail. And so embarrassing!! I think in general, I’ve been putting out a lot of negative vibes lately, so I have decided to put together a list of the positive things about the bar exam:
1. I got to spend a lot of time with my dog
I have a little Yorkie and she is really special to me. She’s getting old–she will be fifteen in August–and I know that she won’t be around forever. Because I took an online bar course, I worked almost entirely from home and so we got to spend a lot of time together. It was really nice and I am grateful to have been able to spend so many hours with her.
2. My house was really clean
Like most people I know, the only way I can procrastinate and not feel terrible about it is when I am doing something productive. Somehow I can rationalize taking an hour to clean the cracks between the couch cushions, but taking 30 minutes for some TV is a big no-no. Procrastinating is okay, but only if it’s for stuff that HAS to be done. Starting around mid-June, I found a lot of things that HAD to be done. My house is crazy clean right now and it’s nice. It feels like a grown up lives here.
3. My boyfriend was so great during all of this
A lot of people say that the bar exam is really hard on relationships. And I can certainly understand why that is. Studying for it is so stressful and time consuming and even the most rational and calm people are bound to snap. The bar exam has this ability to bring out the “crazy” that most of us keep hidden away. It’s just such a long and drawn out period of uncertainty and that anxiety and stress that you feel everyday just starts to compound and it really adds up after a while! And for me, I’m already a little crazy, so that is a big problem! I’m neurotic and worry and am very insecure. I certainly wouldn’t want to date me. But for some reason, my boyfriend seems to like me and despite what might have been my craziest of crazy, he still stuck around. And not only did he not take off running, he was just so awesome. He explained a lot of the areas of the law that I didn’t understand and he never once made me feel stupid while he did it–a pretty impressive feat! I think these two months really reminded me why he is such a great guy and I am a very lucky lady!
4. I lost a lot of weight!
Depending on how you deal with stress, the bar can be a great diet! I’m sure I will gain it all back in about five days, but I feel pretty good right now!!
5. The bar exam had the opposite effect on the girl who was a total Mean Girl in law school
“You can’t sit with us!”
When I woke up this morning, I felt pretty good. I was ready. This is how I felt:
When I approached the giant warehouse where I would be spending the next three days, my confidence disappeared. There was a huge line of cars waiting to turn into the parking lot and people everywhere. They all looked more prepared than me. It brought me back to reality. This is how I felt:
But I did not go home, instead I just had a quasi-public cry. On my way in, I ran into a classmate. He’s a nice guy, but I’m not particularly close to him. He was outside smoking so I said “hello.” He responded, “you look terrified.” I tried to laugh it off and said, “do I really look that bad,” but as the words came out of my mouth I could hear my voice cracking and tears were starting to form. “Do you need a hug?” he replied. I just shook my head yes, started crying, and hugged a classmate I don’t really even know all that well.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??
So then after my awkward hug/cry I dropped off my sandwich I had purchased at a gas station on the way to the test warehouse and then went inside the testing room. We went through the instructions, I opened the packet, and read the essay. I don’t know why I was surprised, but it was exactly the same as all the other essays I had practiced. I knew how to do this! I felt good again!!
Then we went to lunch and I made the mistake of talking about the essays to friends/eavesdropping on strangers’ conversations. This is how it made me feel:
Eight essays later, the first day of the exam was over. I stopped to get some Chipotle and the girl forgot my sour cream. I didn’t realize it until I was ten minutes away. This is how I felt:
When I finally got home, I tried to study, but I just couldn’t do it. Instead, I watched Bunheads and ate a burrito sans sour cream. Bunheads is this really silly show on ABC Family. I’m still not quite sure what it’s about, but it seems to focus a few ballerinas and a woman who speaks only in puns and talks far too much and far too quickly. It’s not really that good, but it was exactly what I needed!
Today was stressful, but the good news is that I am only two days away from sitting by a pool with an US Weekly and a frozen margarita!!
1. Talk about the bar exam to other people who just took the same bar exam.
2. Look up the correct answers to the essay questions.
3. Remember there is more bar exam tomorrow.
4. Eat too much junk food.
Very rarely do I ever have any good advice to offer anybody. Like ever. Usually the only time I am even qualified to offer up any sort of advice is after I have made some stupid mistake about 100 times. And even then my advice is typically “don’t do that; it’s stupid.” But that is not the case today! I have good advice (unless you don’t have health insurance, then just quit reading here; you wont think the advice is any good).
So I have had to deal with a bunch of insurance stuff lately and I ended up getting out my policy and actually reading it. When reading it, I discovered something amazing: my insurance covers “alternative medicine.” And buried in the description of alternative medicine was massages.
So I just got back from a massage and I feel great! I had never had a medical massage before, but the guy who did it was fantastic. Normally I don’t really like massages. I find it really uncomfortable to have a stranger stroke me while burning incense and playing Enya in the background. But this was nothing like that! I didn’t even have to get naked. I told the massage therapist that I have been studying for the bar and he worked on all the trigger points and knots in my back. I feel like a huge amount of pressure has been relieved! And the best part, I’m supposed to come back on Monday for another one. And even better than the best part (is that possible?), it only cost me $11 out of pocket. And this isn’t a humble brag here.
My point is that I have pretty middle of the road insurance. There was no “Lexus Plan” for me and yet it was still hidden in my policy! So if you are stressed, have 45 minutes to spare and don’t have anybody to give you a massage, take a few minutes to check your insurance policy and see what you can get!
Also, I hope this is not Gwyneth Paltrow like advice (now that I’ve claimed this be “good advice,” I feel like I need to qualify it!). I understand that a lot of people don’t have health insurance and so if that is the case for you, I am sorry that my advice sucks.
1.Start an online bar prep program.
2. Stop working one week away from the bar exam (few minutes = all day):